The day I was depressed
"I feel useless. It's been a while since I've been this miserable. I thought i was making progress, but if I compare where I am to where I want to be, it's like I've been standing still. There is so little to show for it. I don't know what to do. I guess what i need may be some encouragement. I need someone to hold my hands and say well done. That's one thing I won't get though. I know in my heart I've made progress, but I can't see myself getting to where I need to be! I don't know what to do anymore. I need money, like yesterday. I need help, but most of all, I need someone to believe in me. And here I've got to the root of the problem. I think I can't do it. Everyone agrees, and there's no one telling me otherwise. No voice insisting on my competence. I want to believe in me. I'm trying to love myself and believe in myself, but I'm scared. What if I fail? Well, I'll still have to live with myself...
